Vampires anyone?

So I sit here writing this in between trips to the can. I cant count the times I have physically exploded over the last 2 days. Thank God for indoor plumbing. I don't know why I got a flu shot, I'm convinced now that it has no practical value whatsoever. Anyway nothing really funny in this blog. I get really depressed and dark and sarcastic when I get sick. It makes me miss my grandma even more, she used to be the one who would take care of me and fuss over me when I would get sick. At least I have some books to read while I'm sick.

I was running a fever last night and I dreamt that I was a vampire. My name was Luscious and I was 400 years old. I had traveled the world and seen amazing things. And somehow I would up as a dishwasher at Ryan's in Cape. That's how depressed I get when I'm sick. Even in my own fantasy world where I am immortal and anything can happen, I am a dishwasher.

OK well I got to go. I need to pass out again. Peace be with you.

its all a matter of timing...

Sorry I haven't kept up lately with the blog.  I got really busy with Cafe.  But now things are somewhat slower and I'm back baby yeah!  Man things are happening too.  I finished EMT school in July and have been looking for a job in the area ever since.  I had a couple interviews but not much luck with anything.  Its been really frustrating to hit dead end after dead end.  I have been praying lately for a job and that God would reveal his will for me.  And I gotta be honest, these have been some lean times of late.  Its funny, I have been hearing a lot about being thankful about what we have.  This is the time of year where we should take stock at our blessings and what we have.  And maybe its just me, but sometimes its in the lean times when you truly learn to be thankful.  My heater went out in my car and I just got it fixed a week ago.  But it was awhile before I could get it fixed.  So over the course of a few cold weeks as I drove around freezing in my car, I started thinking about people that live in that kind of condition all the time.  And my focus started to shift from myself being cold and inconvenienced, to where I started praying and thinking more about people less fortunate than me.  There are people in this world that would love to have my car, even if it has no heat.  

Well I finally got my heat fixed, and now every time I get in my car I thank God for what I have.  That's something you never really think about, like heat in your car.  You never miss it until its gone.  It seems like the more stuff we have the less in touch we are with the rest of the world.  Our focus shifts from others to ourselves.  I think Puff Daddy was right when he said "Mo money, mo problems."  I think that goes with other things too.  Mo stuff, mo problems.  I know that's the way it is with me anyway.  God has taught me something about prayer and his timing also.  I guess most of us are impatient when it comes to prayer.  I have been praying for a job for months now.  And I have read that Gods timing is not ours.  And I've come to realize that of course that is true.  But also that Gods timing is not just different than ours.  But it is so much better than ours.  I cant see the big picture, but in those times, I need to trust that God can.  And trust that he has my best interest at heart.  

This last Friday God went above and beyond answering my prayers.  He blessed me with more than I asked for.  Now only did I get a great job, but at a reputable and awesome place to work.  Pretty much the place that I would pick if it was up to me.  Much praise to God for blessing me.  And also thanks to all my friends who have been praying for me.  I know that this was a direct result of people lifting me up.  Thanks.